Why I'm Looking Foward to the Future in these Uncertain Times

5/2/25

This year hasn't been the best for anyone, espically if you live in America like myself. 2025 has been really bad for me because of my personal life in addition to the horridness of America. But that's not what I want to focus on today, I want to focus on why I'm looking foward to the future. Hopefully, this blog post will make you more optimistic for the future like me.

Being Queer

Now this might seem counterintuitive given the current political climate. However, I believe many people forget that queer people have been around and survived so much throughout history. We as queer people will survive this era no matter how bad it gets. No matter how hard it may get we will persevere, it is what we're good at.

The Inevitable Fall of AI

It seems like today that AI is inescapable, but I firmly believe that in 5 years the presence of AI will be greatly reduced. The reason I believe this is due the similarities between the rise of AI and the Dot-Com bubble. This video explains the similarities elegantly. The main difference between the Dot-Com bubble and the AI bubble is, during the Dot-Com bubble the companies were publically traded while the AI bubble is funded by venture capitalists. Just like the Dot-Com bubble AI is being plastered into anything and everything.

Now what will happen when this AI bubble bursts? Microsoft at the time of writing this, owns 49% of OpenAI, the creators of ChatGPT. Looking at history when Time Warner and AOL merged it was a disater and AOL is a relic of the past only remembered by nostaligic internet users like myself. Therefore, OpenAI and AI in general may be forgotten in a few years. Microsoft can exsit without AI, however there is no OpenAI without AI.

If I haven't made it clear, I'm not the biggest fan of AI. AI steals from the internet and gives inaccurate information on most topics anyway. If you use AI in your workflow or to learn something you tend to rely on it heavily. For example, there is a phenomonon in coding called the "Copilot Pause". Github Copilot is an AI powered programming tool that autocompletes your code and makes you code "faster". However if someone has been using Copilot for awhile and turn it off, their brain is trained to wait for Copliot to autocomplete for you, and thus the pause.

Creative Hobbies

I believe everyone needs a creative hobby or multiple. I have been really enjoying writing, drawing, and learning how to make music. I recommend picking up a creative hobby because it allows you to express yourself in new and fun ways. It also is a way to resist as you can use your art as a way to protest. I can't wait to go back after writing this to make something with my creative juices. My hobbies allow me to look at the future and get inspired!

Conclusion

All in all, I think there are many things to look forward to in the future and hopefully this blog post made it so that your future is more optimistic.

Deeply Stressed

4/12/25

I haven't been updated this website in a long time due to my personal life. I've honestly been a really stressed mess. I've been dealing with a lot stuff I'm not ready to get into on here. It's been a deeply stressful time these past few months. However, I'm comitted to updating my website more often!

Update from Me!

11/22/24

It has been awhile since I have updated this website. I have been super busy with school so that has taken up a bunch of my time. As classes are wrapping up for this semester I have a little bit of a break now and then so I'll be updated this website every now and then. I hope to update this site on a somewhat regular basis but who knows.

I have also decided to change what pronouns I go by. I used to use she/they/he, I now use she/it/they :)

Support from Friends

10/2/24

At the end of last blog post I mentioned my ex. My friends have been supporting me while navigating my mental health and emotions regarding my ex. My support network is the best. It is my first time ever really having real friends which is nice. I love my friends (platonically)

A New Beginning!

9/15/24

This website is not my first, but my second. I wanted to restart my website as I didn't like how things looked and felt limited by the free plan of neocities. Also, the neocities CLI was very cumbersome. That is why I switched over to github pages as there are a lot less restrictions than on neocities. I also find the workflow much easier on github than on neocities.

Other than that I have just started my sophmore year of college and I am so excited for what the future holds. Unlike freshman year I have been able to make a lot of friends. I've also been making a lot of discoveries about myself. For example, I somewhat recently came out as Genderfluid. But at the same time my PTSD has resurfaced which sucks. On my previous site I talked about my boyfriend. Let's just say that we're exes now and I'm now having flashbacks again.

On a much lighter note, I have been loving my sophmore year of college. I have been living in the LGBTQ+ wing of my dorm which is so awsome and affirming. Living with queer people as a queer is amazing 10/10 would recommend. My dormmates are so amazing and so nice. It is such a nice community. :)